Thoughts.. and an Avril song.

It's funny, the way things play out sometime. You've gotten out of a rough time -- not terrible, not thw worst experience you've ever had, but certainly not the best -- and you're swearing to yourself that you won't get into anything like that again -- at least for another year or so. And then somebody comes along, and that burning curiousity isnide gets the best of you, and you decide to see where it goes. Heck -- I wasn't planning on Matt and I going anywhere.. and here we are, almost four months in, and I honestly could not be happier. Whenever I'm with him, things seem to be in perfect harmony, and for those few hours, I feel like every problem in my life is gone -- solved, or disappeared. He has flaws -- everyone does, of course -- but to me, he is so close to perfect. There have been so many times that I have just wanted to freeze in a moment and stay in it forever. It's weird.. for the first month of our relationship.. when we'd be in a movie, it'd seem almost like he was supposed to have his arm around me, but not that he wanted to. And it wasn't anything he did -- that's just how I felt. But tonight, I was watching the movie, and I realized that I was so wrapped up in it, and so comfortable next to him.. just how right things felt. He and I click so well.. and I hope I'm not jinxing it by telling the world how absolutely amazing and wonderful I think he is.. but everday, I love him more and more, and everday, I think of something new that is so incredibly special to me. He is my entire universe right now -- which is rather scary, I do admit -- but I wouldn't have it any other way. :)

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Avril Lavigne - Innocence

Waking up I see that everything is okay
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling


This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry

This innocence is brilliant, it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliance, please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

I ♥ my life.

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Matt and I are wonderful. I don't know what I did to deserve him.. I'm a really lucky person. Honestly -- we've been together a little over three months, officially -- and we haven't even really had a disagreement, at all. I don't know if that should be a good thing or bad -- meaning we'll have some HUGE argument soon -- but I'm really glad. We click very well together, I think. I like it. :) I mean, I still become jealous, and I'm sure he does too.. but it's not out-of-hand jealousy. It's normal, "I care about you so I'm concerned" jealousy.. lol.. y'know. Normal stuff.

School is school. I really like my classes still. I'm getting the hang of everything now.. including my business. And I'm quoting off stuff from Marketing class like crazy. You never realize how sneaky businesses are with their advertising to get you to buy stuff.. it's ridiculous. Very smart.

My friends.. gosh, I feel so bad for some of them. The stuff they're going through right now is ridiculous. I mean.. they could have cancer and be on their death beds.. and that would be worse.. but still. It's not exactly good things they're going through. Well, okay -- it'll be good in the long run.. y'know, nevermind. I'm not explaining. But you all understand. I keep praying and praying, so hopefully something good will come out of everything soon.

I have so much stuff happening in April, it's not even funny. This Friday, I'm going out of town to see "In The Beginning", which I'm REALLY excited about. And then I'll spend Saturday with Matt, and Sunday I'll be doing Easter stuff. Then Monday I'm off school, but I might go into the YMCA to talk with Shelley, to see if they'll hire me back. Tuesday I have my last Community band rehearsal.. and Wednesday I have church. Thursday morning through Saturday evening I'm in New York.. then Sunday I'll be in church, and probably to a soccer game. Monday [April 16] I'm free, then Tuesday I have my Community Band concert. Wednesday is just plain youth group.. then Thursday I have the Potomac State College Jazz Festival at Windsor Hall. Then Friday [4.20] I have Matt's formal to attend, and that Saturday I'm painting stuff down at Camp Minco. Sunday I just have regular church.. and probably a soccer game again. Monday is mine and Matt's four months.. :) .. and nothing on the 24. Wednesday I have regular youth group.. Thursday I don't have anything.. then Friday and Saturday is YOUTH CONVENTION! :):):) I get back from that.. and it's Mom's birthday.. so we'll probably be going somewhere.. then I have church that Wednesday.. and that saturday is..

dun dun dun..

PROM.

This should be an interesting five weeks.

But I still can't complain. :)

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