Sunrise, sunset..

I found a flyer laying on our dinig room table today. I picked it up, and realized it was for a college, so I figured I might as well throw it away, since I'm pretty much set on going to WVU. For some reason or another, I decided it was in my best interest to look inside. As I open the pamphlet, I see beautiful pictures of this city, and I'm thinking, "Hmm.. this looks familiar.." When I read the campus location: Rome, Italy. I don't think there is anything I want more than to be able to live in Rome... the art over there is amazing, the city is beautiful; I love Italy. So I was very into the idea of investigating further. So I decided that I'd check the internet between first and second block, since I have twenty minutes to do nothing anyway. So I checked on it.. and realized that a semester there, with 15 - 17 credit hours, would cost me about the same amount as a full year at WVU. And all of the expenses that are involved are outrageous.. but for some reason.. I still feel this strong pull towards this school. I asked Mom and Dad if they'd look at it.. and they said they would.. but I don't think they'll want to pay for it. I can apply for scholarships, but there aren't many that I'm eligible for. I figure the most I can do right now is pray that God leads me in the right direction. I just find it weird that a college in the place that I want to live the most sends me a pamphlet right at the time that I start thinking WVU isn't really what I want out of life. Don't get me wrong -- I love it up there -- but their standards of admission are so low.. well, low for me. I want to be challenged. WVU has SO MANY students.. this campus has about 750. Yeah, that's it. Very small classes (student-to-teach ratio of 10/1).. I would love having smaller classes. I could get more help from my teachers, and interact with the other students much easier. My original point, though, is that it is a very selective school, and I'd definitely be challenged there. Plus -- how many people can say, "I went to college in Rome"?!

The other problem is.. and I know this is a long shot.. but if Matt and I would still be together then.. that would be.. that'd probably be the day that I'd break up with him. I'd have that acceptance letter, and that would be the end of it. Unless he was a very, very trusting, willing-to-make-it-work kind of boyfriend. But I don't even think that I could wait four years to really be together. It'd be hard to see each other on holidays -- let alone my own family -- so I don't know how it would work out.

So mostly, I'm just thankful that I have a God who's looking out for me and helping my family and I to make correct decisions. I just hope we get the message..