Looking to the past to remember the future.

Looking back on my sophomore and junior years, I've come to realize how crazy and emotional they were for me. I mean.. my sophomore year.. I loved someone so much that I would've done anything for them.. and not in a good way. I was completely away from God, and didn't want anything to do with my parents or family. He broke my heart, and his girlfriend wanted to break my legs. I was threatened numerous times, I had my parents find out stuff that I didn't want them to know.. and then I finally grew closer to them and God. I then entered a relationship with one boy, even though I knew very well my heart was set on another. And this was all before my sophomore year was over with. That summer was one of the most emotional seasons I've ever had in my life; my marching season was less than perfect for me, I lost a lot of close friends, and I had my heart broken a second time, although it was self-inflicted, and for a good reason. The school year didn't start out much better, either. I was struggling with my classes -- but too prideful to ask for help -- and still burning bridges with my friends. I gained a few newer, closer friends, but lost so many more than I gained. I learned a lot about myself as a person, and am continuing to grow spiritually. I then started into a relationship with one of the most wonderful people I know, and that relationship continues to awe me to this day. I suddenly started to feel like, even if I was completely alone, I still had someone thinking about me, or praying for me. And that was a good feeling.

By the time 2007 started, I had been going through tons of crazy stuff like that. But I was certain that everything was going to be okay. Now, as I write this to you.. my boyfriend and I are still together after five months.. I'm still the vice president of the SMILE team.. and, despite hours of crying and stressing about snare try-outs.. I will be marching tenors for my senior year.

Things could not be better.. and I am quite certain that everything -- even college -- is going to be okay.