Call this a prelude to a lifetime of you.

[FOOTBALL]
Frankfort is now 2 - 1. We've beaten Moorefield and Hampshire, but we lost to Fort Hill. That's not very shocking. WVU definitely beat the Terps, and I'm definitely upset about that. Either way.. go Terps!

Speaking of Terps.. Mr. Cowgill lost a bet with our class, so he had to take down his Terps flag. So I asked him to borrow it for the weekend. After the football game last night, I told my parents they had to go ahead and leave, and then I switched Mom's WVU flag with his Maryland flag. That was funniest thing.. her reaction was priceless. And then I hung it up somewhere in the house, and she already took it down. Jerk.. lol

[DRAMA]
There is so much drama starting at our school, it isn't even funny. I'm doing my best to stay out of it, and honestly, ever since I've stopped talking to some people.. or at least not talked to some people as much.. I've done a good job of staying out of it. Although, I must admit, it is quite tough, since it seems to follow a lot of my friends. But I still try not to get involved.

[LTC]
I've named our little section of lunch table the Lunch Table Crew (stolen from Big Brother's LNC - Late Night Crew). We're always talking politics or religion, or who's dating and who's broken up and who just can't keep their legs closed. We also help each other with our first block or third block homework, because we're pretty much all in the same class. And we talk about Matt and Arik a lot.. it's wonderful. I love my lunch table. It's pretty much comprised of Melicha, Sarah, Carrie, myself, and Megan. Melissa is there, but she talks to Lindsey a lot of them and doesn't participate in the discussion quite as much. But either way.. I love those guys.. and we need shirts made. :) haha

[STRESS]
I'm not nearly as stressed as I was at the beginning of the week. I got my first psychology test out of the way, as well as my first math test, and my first AP government test. The only score I'm completely sure of is math, because she handed it back.. and I got a 90%, although I didn't finish every problem. She's doing a retest, and I'm taking it, because I want an A. As far as AP government, on the multiple choice, I had an F. But then he let us correct the test, and I'll end up with about a B. But then there was an essay portion that was worth a lot more. So.. I'm hoping I got at least a B on everything. And psychology.. I added up my total.. and I think I got a low B or a high C. Not a very good score. But at the rate we take tests, I can more than make it up. Especially now that I know how the tests are. And it wasn't that the test was really difficult.. it was just that I had a lot of trouble studying and remembering because I was stressing out so bad. If my grades start to slip, the first thing that'll happen is I'll have to quit my job. If they continue to slip, then it'll either be extra-curricular activities or Matt. And either way, I'm not willing to give up either. But that's part of what had me stressed out -- fear of losing Matt and/or extracurriculars. And then I called him, to try to make me feel better.. and I was fine up until he said, "I love you." And then I lost it again. Ugh.. I hate stress. I'm still a little stressed, don't get me wrong.. but that's just because I have a lot of stuff to do and not enough time to do it.

[SMILE Team]
I stayed after school yesterday to help decorate with the SMILE team, and I felt really out of place at first. I'm not exactly decorating smart.. so of course, they send me to help with a group of freshmen, who have never done this before. I'd feel so much better if they would've sent me with a group of juniors or seniors, just because they know what kind of stuff to do. Don't get me wrong -- it was awesome that we had so many people there -- but I felt so lost. Then, I started going on trash duty and making sure everybody was doing okay. Mrs. Cowgill finally noticed the 'lost puppy dog' look and sent me to work with my friend Heather. Little did she know, Heather was leaving for work. So I put up a streamer or two and a little football picture.. and by the time I did then, Kenn came down and asked me for help. So the rest of the day was spent helping Kenn put up posters that Whitney and Madison so amazingly drew. Including.. a senior poster that we all got to sign.. that made me happy. But what made me happiest was the fact that there were probably.. ten or fifteen students that stayed after, in addition to me, to help out. It's so awesome to see that other people have a passion for doing what I love to do. And it makes me feel even better about being the Vice President, because we have a really great group of kids this year.

[MATT]
I can't even begin to tell you how much I love him. And I'm pretty much 100% sure I'm head over heels in love with him. When I say I want to marry him, I'm being rather serious. We've both talked about it, as a not-in-the-near-future topic, of course, and we both agree that it is the desirable result of our relationship. However, we both know things can change, and we both realize that not everything that's built to last does last. Still, though.. we love each other. :) haha.. he's so much fun to just spend time with and talk to. He's really done a great job of being there for me when I need him - something a lot of people have trouble with - and he's put so much work into this relationship. We haven't really fought, per se.. we've disagreed a few times, argued a few times, but we've talked out the problem and gotten over it. We don't fight every day like some relationships, and I'm taking that as a good sign. And if something does happen, we don't hold grudges about it for days or months.. or years.. we just get over it, forget it, and learn from it. Matt is the truly stable point of my life right now, and I am so thankful and so blessed to have him here.

[ANBERLIN]
I've been addicted to Anberlin for the past month or so. I think I'm going to go buy one of their CDs.. either Cities or Never Take Friendship Personal. Both of those have some really great songs on it. *shrug* Maybe I'll do that this weekend. I'm not sure yet. But their song "Time and Confusion" is amazing. And I would sing it to Matt if I could. I'll have to post the lyrics after I finish this up.

[SPEAKING OF..]
Speaking of finishing up.. I guess I'd better go get my work clothes washed and my psychology homework done. So.. until next time!

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Anberlin - Time And Confusion

Woah oh! Yea yea! Woah oh yea yea woah oh!
Woah oh! Yea yea! Woah oh yea yea woah oh!

Live for today, we'll dream tomorrow;
We've got big plans in sight.
We'll take this city, and by nightfall -
The bright lights are calling -
Everything is g... see alloing our way.
Everything is just as we planned;
This is our future for what we've heard,
And I've still got your hand.

And it feels like, we could last forever,
And I'm not doing this alone.

When memories fade, we've got each other..
When time and confusion collide..
Singing, "I hold it all when I hold you."
When friends walk other ways, we've got each other;
I hold it all when I hold, I hold it all when I hold you.

Woah oh! Yea yea!
Woah oh yea yea woah oh!

We fell on hard times;
This isn't the ideal:
We're miles from home, doing the best that we can (the best that we can).
I wont do this without you (do this without you),
Wont do this without you so take heart,
'Cause you know that you have mine.

And it feels like, we could last forever,
And I'm not doin' this alone.

When memories fade, we've got each other..
When time and confusion collide..
Singing, "I hold it all when I hold you."
When friends walk other ways, we've got each other;
I hold it all when I hold, I hold it all when I hold..

It's not about the money we make,
It's about the passions that we ache for.
What makes your heart beat faster?
Tell me now, what does your body long after?
I don't care now where we live;
It's not where, or what, or who we were with.
I just need you in my life, so promise me again!

When memories fade, we've got each other..
When time and confusion collide..
Singing "I hold it all when I hold you."
When friends walk other ways, we've got each other;
I hold it all when I hold, I hold it all when I hold you.

Woah oh! Yea yea!
Woah oh yea yea woah oh!