Yep.

I'm about halfway done my Renaissance project.. finally. I decided to set Macbeth in the Pirates of the Caribbean time period, with pirates. It's actually going very well now that I've gotten an idea on paper. I've gotten Lady Macbeth's costume drawn and finished, and I'm working on Macbeth's as we speak. I kind of wish this production would actually be done. Maybe I'll write the script for it one day.

Today, I decided I want to go to Concord. I'll probably change my mind by tomorrow. But that's okay. See, here's the thing. I got a scholarship for there for a whole $2,000 a year (which really isn't that much, but whatever). If I get PROMISE, though, those two scholarships pretty much take care of my entire school career. Any other scholarships I may get would just be money in my pocket. So right now, the money is weighing out everything else. Even Matt..

I just need a change. Unfortunately, said change won't come for another eight months. Yipee.

This has been one of the best and worst years of my life.. for all the same reasons. It may not make sense to you, but you'd understand if you knew everything I'm thinking of.

"I feel I must interject here: you're getting carried away feeling sorry for yourself with these revisions, and gaps in history. So let me help you remember -- I've made charts and graphs that should finally make it clear -- I've prepared a lecture on why I have to leave -- so please back away and let me go." "I can't, my darling, I love you so. Tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better than making you my bride and slowly growing old together?" "Don't you feed me lines about some idealistic future! Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures."

Matt and I disagree on that song. He goes with the guy.. because the guy really loves her. But I'm all for the girl, because she's being realistic, and she knows that love isn't always enough to make something work out.

Love is never enough.